Last night, I was working on a project at work - a really detailed and complicated one. I spent several hours at that point just focusing and trying to make sure this 'team building' activity went the way it was supposed to.
Everyone was getting on each others nerves, so I split everyone and told them to take a quick walk, get some air, some water and meet me back in a few.
While they were all away, I got into my phone and realized I had an email ... an email from Dawn. I didn't really recognize it and I didn't believe that it was what it was. I just read on and didn't pay any mind to anything else around me. I had to reread it a few times to get the gist of it and once I did, I smiled widely and told one of my employees near by (also a friend) that I was thrilled, that I just got an email from someone that I didn't expect to hear from.
It seems (if I'm reading correctly) that Germany wants to come home next summer - that she really misses her family here. I thought she'd be home this past summer, but that wasn't the case. Finally, she just might be coming home.
She is the only person I have ever felt safe with, which seems to still be the case. I have waited for that feeling of safety to return all this time, but it hasn't and that's okay.
My new therapist recently told me that she believes she may never see her again. I never believed that. I always knew that one day, we would meet up again - that the last goodbye wasn't final. I will not allow her to become a person of my past - that's just simply not an option.
People that have shaped your life in positive ways - should never be forgotten.
And she never will be.
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